Since my last blog my life has been turned basically upside down... I am now living in the state of unknown which I hate with a passion.. I am hoping that things will turn out well but only time will tell... At least there was some good news that we found out today... We are expecting a girl which is what we had been hoping for so that way we will now have 1 of each.. I am getting so excited that my parents arrive on Saturday so I have only 5 more days until I am on the road... I am still kind of dreading it at the same time as well because I have no idea when my husband will be able to join us and I feel guilty not keeping AJ here so that he can spend time with him.. I understand that it is only temporary but how temporary is yet to be known...

Well, today has been quite a day... I have finally made up my mind that even if this transfer doesn't go through I am on the move back to AZ on the 16th... I am so thrilled about finally making this decision because I am so ready to go forward... Tomorrow my parents should know the answers about getting time off so that way my mom can come pick up my son and my dad and I would make the drive... Now the countdown is on and packing needs to start happening.... Only 11 days left...

This is going to be short and sweet.. I am so frustrated with these stupid hours that I have to work... It is now 2 in the afternoon and I should be able to play with my son but not me I have to start thinking about going into work since I have to be there at 4... Then who knows when I will get out? I am hoping by at least 1 but we will never know until after we close...

This is my first time ever blogging so you have to bear with me while I figure this thing out... Today was a just another day.. I am hoping to find out soon whether or not the transfer I have requested will take effect and when.. I had no idea how much I would miss my family until this past 6 months.. I have realized that my husband and I need to stop being so stubborn so that we can get help... Living here in Florida while everyone is so far away and having such a small income that it is really not even worth mentioning I think has finally hit.. I am having so much trouble keeping things together right now because all I can think about is wanting to get to Arizona with AJ so that I can get a house and situated so that JC can make his way there.. We have come to the conclusion that we need to be seperated for a month or so that way things can get done.. He will be staying behind in Florida until I get a house that will accept our dogs.. They are such a big part of my son's life that we can get rid of them at all.. JC will also have the availabilty to work anytime if I have AJ with me.. I believe that for both of us it is one if not the hardest decision that we have ever had to make.. The longest we have ever been apart is only 2 weeks and that was rough enough... It will be difficult for me to do but at least I know that I will have the help that I need.. Being almost 5 months pregnant during this time is also difficult but I am still hopeful that things will turn themselves around...